Sunday, December 7, 2008

Trust Continues…

1-5-08

“Seek first His Kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you.” Do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will worry about itself each day has enough trouble of its own.” (Matthew 6:33-34). This is big for me because I am so impatient. If I obey (seek ye first the Kingdom of heaven and his righteousness then I trust. With trust comes faith inside-out. I can’t worry what tomorrow brings I have to live from day to day. Keep the Faith that God will make everything alright. I must remember things happen for a reason and a season. No matter what happens it is in his divine plan. I know there is purpose for my life and I have to follow the path not always travel (living familiar to the unfamiliar) and put my hand in the hand of the man who stills the waters and calms the sea. Who take a Man from poverty (My Father) and have him make history And be a very important force in many people’s life. If he did it for him I know he can do something for me.

Trust


(Proverbs 3:5-6)

1-4-08

Some People have told me that I am very brave when I just up and moved to NYC. Not knowing what was in store for me. I knew I could do it. You know why I could ….because of Trust. Like Abraham, with little money and no place of my own I move to an unfamiliar place. Risky, yes, BUT God said he will never leave me nor forsake me when I lean on him only. Moving to NYC is not the first “Risky” thing I’ve done. I must trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding in all (my) ways acknowledge him, and he will make (my) path straight (direct my paths). Proverbs 3:5-6.
Trust and Obey go hand and hand. If you obey His Word, you trust what he says He will do. I trust God’s will and he will bring me into Greatness. I am Greatness. God is blessing me everyday. He is a mighty God and I have to hold to the covenant I made with Him. “Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom. (Psalm 90:12).

Get Wisdom At All Cost

1-2-08

As I Read Proverbs, I’m reminded of how direr it is that we get/have wisdom. We must have wisdom so we know how to live right in God’s sight. First we must start with “the Fear of the Lord.”
What is the Fear of the Lord?
*Doing his will,
*Following His Word
*Obeying his commandments.

Basically it is having a Close Relationship the Lord.
How do we do this?

One: Read the Word Daily. What you read in the Word might not be necessarily used right away. It is used for guidance that will help us with situations to come. I am excited to what the Lord is going to teach me today! I must maintain this desire so I can grow in the Lord. And it will help me to “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. Because “He is doing a new thing in my life…I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland. (Isaiah 43: 18-19). Proverbs 1:8-19 reminds me to “beware of sinners Enticement.” They will (have) say pretty words but I must avoid them at all cost. As I read, God is opening my eyes to see what others enjoy and think of as bliss, turns me off. “He said like what I like and hate what I hate.

Mediations- 6/16/06

Fully Committed 1-1-08

Fully Committed 1-1-08
For those who know me (St. John AME People) know I love to sing and hear the song "Fully committed" every since I was a child. The beginning words are "All that I am and all that I hope to be. All of my desires and all of my abilities. I'm fully committed to your will and to your way. I'll make the sacrifice to do what you ask of me. My loves for ever and Jesus you're all that I need. And I can never repay what you did just for me. I give my life fully committed to you."

Proverbs 1:7 "The Fear of the Lord is the Beginning of Knowledge."

It has been spoken over my life that 2008 is my year. I believe God has something’s in store that I can't even wrap my mind around. I will "Trust in the Lord with al my heart and lean not on MY OWN understanding and in all my ways acknowledge him." (Proverbs 3: 5-6. When the New Year comes around folks make resolutions...Well I vow to stop making promises I can't keep and start from the beginning "Fear of The Lord." I must do only his will. So therefore I must delete and keep out anything that is not of him (i.e. people, habits, hang ups, heart breaks) and I will always finish strong at the end of the day. My GOAL is to stay in the presence of the Lord. I will start off with the Lord and I will continue with Him. 2008- What's for me is for me because I am Fully Committed
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I am intrigued, curious and wanting more

December 5, 2008
I am intrigued, curious and wanting more.

I have to get my dose of you.


You take my mind to places that I never imagine.


You have unlocked the desires that I longed for, that I kept safely in a vault far from he thieves of my insecurities.
I was intrigued....With the way you walk. The way you talk. The way you wear your clothes.



I had to know your name. You told me Love.


Are you sure I said?
I was curious...You have entered my space that has been filled with a void of loneliness.



Why are you here? Why have you disturbed my insanity?


I was just fine being alone. Now I can’t get you off my mind.


The question is: Will you let me in?


I’m not ready to give my heart. I'm not sure I want to take the time.


I'm not ready to be rejected again and again and again and again. I'm not ready to let ME go and to let Love grow.
I was wanting more....My curiosity have my mind pondering of what can be. May be. But I just can't let you in....But you inspire me...it is amazing how you have unlocked this feeling that have me reeling over you.



Who are you? Why are you here?


Can you Please Stop this emotional roller coaster of want & fear.


Fear and want. Fear of wanting to let go and let love...do its job.

Then the alarm clock rings and I awake. Time to stop living in a dream and get a life!